Day 18 of the blogger life
This is week has been so hectic, but thank god spring break just started.
I had a 10-page research paper due on Thursday, turn in my applications for next year's classes, and ZAYN LEAVING ONE DIRECTION.
I seriously had a break down on Tuesday. I went into the yearbook room at school that day to start my yearbook spread, which was due on Friday. I was super stressed out cause of everything going on and I only had a few days to complete it.
The yearbook staff told everyone, who was trying out for designer, to use a software called indesign to create the spread. How can you just expect someone like me to create a spread out of a software I never used before? It's like asking someone who never used photoshop before and telling them to edit Chuck Norris's head on a camel.
So when I was in the room, I just sat in front of the computer confused and not understanding anything. Not wanting to admit that I was confused, I just said I cant work in this condition right now, which was part true. It was loud, I was tired, and I needed everything to just stop. So I said it's too loud and I couldn't work right now. Two people from the staff didnt even let me finish my sentence when I was going to say I only had 3 hours of sleep that night, and they said I shouldn't be in yearbook. I said I was going to work at home and download the trial on my computer to work. But being the fucktards they are, they just simply told me that if I cant work in loud conditions, I shouldn't be part of the yearbook staff.
The yearbook staff was known to be being harsh towards the freshmen class, assuming that the freshmen cant handle the workload and that they didn't know or have experience to be part of the staff.
I understood that I was a freshman, but what they said was quite mean and unnecessary. Also, I do have experience. I was part of the yearbook staff in my middle school years, took a photoshop class, a photography class, and I enjoyed art all my life.
After they said that, I just left the class and went back to the place where I usually hang out with my friends. And I just started crying. Everything was hard and stressful, knowing this, I would probably hate my life more in the future. I just cried about what happened and let out all the stress I had. I cried about the research paper that I didn't start yet which was due in two days.
It was probably my PMS or the pills that my doctor prescribed to me, but I just felt tired and needed everything to stop. That night, I gave myself this pep talk, telling myself that I could do this, I can get through this, I can finish this. So I started my essay and finished that night.
I spent an hour watching tutorials of how to use Indesign, and just created my spread. Indesign is now in the palm of my hand.
So the next day, Wednesday, I felt great. Although I only had about 4 hours of sleep because I finished all my work and I'm ready. While I was walking to school, I get a notification from twitter, One Direction saying that they have a statement.
Knowing what is going on with Zayn Malik right now (He took a break off the tour for a little bit due to stress), I check to see what was going on. And right there and then, I dropped everything and just broke down.
It said that Zayn was leaving the band. I walked to school crying. March 25, 2015. The worst day of my life.
I just cried throughout that whole entire day. Many said I was being dramatic and stupid for crying over a group of boys I never met before. But this was different, they made me happy. One Direction allowed me to discover new friends and just meet new people in the Directioner community. I even made a friend in the UK, we facetime, talk, and just send each other funny pictures.
I spent about 4 and half years of my life dedicated to One Direction. I watched all their interviews, performances, and know all their lyrics to their songs. I love every single one of the boys. And finding out that one of them leaving the band is horrible, heartbreaking.
If boybands are stupid and considered girly, then why are sports teams any better? Is it because it's more manly? Its like a football fan finding out that their favorite player is leaving their team.
Zayn made me so happy. One Direction makes me happy. If Zayn leaves the band, One direction no longer exist. It isnt One Direction without Zayn. Realizing this, your band who you loved so much doesnt exist hurts, a lot.
What I hated the most was when people just says, "I told you so," and, "They will never be as good as the Beatles, go listen to them instead."
And that is correct, One direction will never be as popular as the Beatles, but it doesn't mean that nobody loves their music. People who say this probably don't even listen to the Beatles, and that is completely stupid. They don't even think this through all logically.
In the 60s, they only had one type of music. They didnt have techno, EDM, rap, or etc. All they listened to was what was going on, aka the Beatles. Both adults, teens, and children listened to the Beatles back then. Not having any other type music other than pop rock, blues rock, etc, they listen to the Beatles! The Beatles was basically the only music back then, thus creating the most popular, piece of history in the music world. I'm not saying that the Beatles didn't make good music, but if you think about it, what if you put the Beatles in today pop culture?
Would the Beatles be as popular today as it was back then? No, because today we have many types of music. Rock, techno, opera, EDM, and a bunch more of other genres. People who actually would love the Beatles today would be the small group who listens to old rock. They would not make it on to any of the radio stations who play Katy Perry all day. Everybody now knows what kind of music they enjoy and what they want to listen too. If you throw in a Rihanna, Usher, Tyga fan to the Beatles, would they actually like them?
Plus, the Beatles only stayed together for two years, yet One Direction is still a band ongoing for about 5 years so far. So this is why I get mad whenever someone says that One Direction will never be as good as the Beatles.
So now it's Saturday, this week is over and Spring break just started. I'm still sad about 1D, but now I'm currently stressed free about school. I just need to clean the house....